Early Education!

I got my college course this morning! Subhan'Allah! I got into Early Childhood Education ;)
Well, initially I wasn't very happy because it was my 10th choice but Alhamdulillah, after I thought about it; the course isn't too bad.

I can further my studies with a degree in the same scope or I can venture into Child Psychology! (What I really wanted)
Thinking about it, it'll be quite fun working around children =)
I've heard from those who have been doing this diploma course, it can be the most fun job in the world at the same time the most stressing; so it's up to me to decide how it should be.

Afterall as I always believed, behind everything that Allah swt has given us is a blessing.So it could be because I've always loved to be a teacher or anywhere around children that Allah swt has given me this course ;)

I feel pretty grateful, Alhamdulillah. I wouldn't want to end up like some of my sisters being thrown into a course that I have no knowledge of at all. Subhan'Allah; May Allah swt ease their journey through this path and May they be granted the course that they are appealing for. Ameen, Insy'Allahu ta'ala.

Who knows maybe this will be a good training for me to be a good mother in the future! :D
Whatever it is, ALHAMDULILLAH is all i wish to say ;)

For those who wish to get to know more about the full-time diploma course that I'm doing, here it is-: Diploma In Early Childhood Education.
-A'qilah Saiere-

Ya Adheeman

My all-time faved nasheed artist is Ahmed Bukhatir and of all his works my favourite is Ya Adheeman.
When you listen to it; you don't want to stop listening to it.
When you're angry and you listen to it; it cools you down.
When you feel horrible, this nasheed makes you smile.
When you feel like crying, this nasheed helps you relieve yourself.

Subhan'Allah and recently, if you guys have heard; Nasheed Singer Kammal Uddin opened up a nasheed group for the young ones and one of them is LIght Of Islam.

Mash'Allah LISTEN to how this kids bring about Brother Ahmed's Ya Adheeman!
They made me tear and smile at the same time :'( :)

SUBHAN'ALLAH! MASH'ALLAH!!
May we have more of our brothers and sisters sending their little ones to such clubs/groups ;)

-A'qilah Saiere-




and this is the original version!

Youtube gone officially Anti-Islam.

YT has gone way beyond hand.
It's too much.

When I do a video displaying Israeli Crimes, I'm an Anti-Semite.
When I do a video asking my ummah to stay strong and unite, I'm a terrorist.
My videos will be flagged and if not privatized it'll be removed in no time.
My account will be suspended and I will lose the whole 800 friends I have on my list.

But look at this video. (attached)



It's plain propaganda; portraying Arabs as terrorists; or should I say Muslims.
This video's not flagged; rather it's being rated 4 1/2 close to 5 stars and being watched by over 500 people.

What double standards.

Muslims on youtube, take note and start flagging and sharing with your fellow Muslims.

Clearly going wayy beyond hand.

-A'qilah Saiere-

BUSY BUSY BUSY

I've not gone home for the past 2-3 days; not that I've run away from home it's just that I've been either at my cousin's or my gramz.
I've been running from place to place.
take today for an instance!
Just came home from lunch and will be leaving for arab street in 10 minutes.

Will blog properly ASAP; Wasaalams!

-A'qilah Saiere-

Hijabs On Sale.

( The upper portion are the Hijabs on sale)


Assalamualaikum to my sisters, I would like to just make a small enquiry to all the muslimahs reading my blog. Attached are pictures of the shawls that I usually wear; they're pretty cheap, comfortable and they're PRETTY! :) mash'Allah all of us would look just so good in it.
It's cotton and it's like those rectangular shaylas. it's thin though so it's perfect for those living in warm countries or for the sisters living in the US and the UK or anywhere else; it's perfect for summer i guess.
Anyway, I wanted to ask if there would be any sisters interested to place their orders if I would decide to sell this online. Honestly, I don't know how to go about with the paying mode; that'll be decided and discussed with my cousin.

I just want to know how many of you sisters who aren't in Singapore would be interested to place your orders. Please leave me your messages.

For the interested sisters in Singapore; mail me i'll give you the details ASAP ;)

JazakAllah Hu Khayran!

-A'qilah Saiere-

Don't judge me on the street!

YA'ALLAH! I'm sick and tired of people asking me whether I'm a madrasah student (full-time madrasah).

LIKE -________- ????!!!
Why do I have to be a Madrasah student just because I'm going around learning about Islam?
I've been attending classes where ever I think is a good place for me to acquire knowledge and chase ilm!

And my mum just told me that I'm one of the most arrogant-looking person on the street.

DO I LOOK ARROGANT TO YOU?

LOL...

Though so I do agree with my mum, I only smile to people I know on the streets. I've made the effort to start smiling to sisters; brothers are out of the picture.
I'm super paranoid to smile to sisters on the streets. The reason why is it's either they throw me a "I don't know you, why are you smiling at me" kinda look OR they personally ask me "Erm.. it seems that I've seen you somewhere. Do I know you?" and of course there are those who reward me the smile back and make my day :)
I mean come on, Prophet saw said -: "Your Smile to your brother will be accounted as charity in your deeds on judgement day" (Sahih Muslim)
I'm just trying to earn some reward for myself and yourself ya'know sisters. SO PLEASE smile back :)

Back to the madrasah part, sigh.. I'm not from a full-time Madrasah and I never was. I was from a CATHOLIC school. They had bible sharing and hymn singing every alternate week; and the many catholic events celebrated with much glory. So when I tell them this, they'll go just :O
SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEESH! Habla!


So NO, I am NOT a Madrasah student just because I go to the Masjid and I wear the Hijab.
AND, I'm not arrogant. I'm the most friendly stranger you can find on the street.
Ask the sisters who know me; they'll tell you how i love making friends with random people. RANDOM people ;) (winks at fatin lolololol)

Ok I'm off to meet my darling sister(fatin). and I'm going to miss my retarded nasara best friend; she's off to Indonesia for 4 days. It's ok i'll text her and let her pay the highest of phone bills. lol.

Saalams,
-A'qilah Saiere<3-

Stay Strong, Have Faith

When the sun shine, we shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be your friend Took an oath I'mma stick it out till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Know that we'll still have each other You can stand under my umbrella
You know it's for you, I don't wish to write your name here time and again and get into silly fights. ;)




I believe that each time someone wants to bring herself closer to Allah swt; He'll continuously test our patience.
I see this everyday. It happens to me, to my special sister and to any other muslimah that I happen to know.

As much as you want to get close to Him, you're bounded with problems after problems.
To some instead of making you stronger, it pushed you to becoming weaker and vulnerable.
Others choose to persist and take every trial one step at a time and instill faith in their hearts to make themselves stronger.

This week has been really trying for me.
This must have been the most tedious, tiring, depressing, worrying, angering Monday-Friday I've ever had.

From tiny little misunderstandings to major mis-communications. From silly arguments to cat fights.
It's just been REALLY trying.
And I know why, because it's my turn to go through these trials.
I know that Allah is testing my patience.
Allah is trying to see how much faith I have in Him and His religion.
Allah is trying to prove to me that I'm strong.
Allah is trying to show me His greatness every other day.
Allah is trying to show me His Guidance and Light.
CORRECTION-:
Allah is seeing, proving, showing, showing and just keeps SHOWING to me how these trials are going to be over and I'll know that by the end of the day it was worth it withstanding them all.

Many have said I've been an inspiration in one way to another and truly I'm grateful, Alhamdulillah. I never thought my blog that started out to be the place where i rant crap; where all i talk about are my worldly desires and my bitchy cat fights with "friends" would end up to be a site where I spread my faith through words of my own.
Da'wah in my own way Alhamdulillah.
Don't thank me though, rather thank Allah swt. I got my inspiration from Him so if you're inspired by my writing that means you're inspired by HIM :)

To my sisters who are struggling with your deen, just a few words for you;
"Stay Strong, Have Faith" and all will go on smoothly.
It is He who guides who is the misguided and it is He who the most generous and most merciful; oft-forgiving and the highest being above us all.

"In times of woes and sorrows, He is the refuge we seek."

-A'qilah Saiere-

Justice in Singapore.

Do you know to bail a drug addict out for 2 weeks you have to have $50,000 in you bank?
A DRUG ADDICT.

You're not bailing a Minister out; you're bailing a freaking heavy heroin taker.
WTH.

It's illogical to me.

I spent 6 hours at the subordinate court today.
3 hours in court 26 to hear when the prosecution will be and another 2 hrs waiting for the next trial and then 1 hour in court 18 waiting to hear the prosecution just to find out that the accused will only be prosecuted on the 30th January.

How's that for a draconian law based city.

I'm pretty happy though. Call me evil; I just have this not-very-respectful feeling towards smokers.
Singapore has imposed a new law; Smokers are to smoke 5m away from every building.
It's a lil too difficult to handle this one.
Singapore's a concrete jungle.
You can't smoke anywhere near a building; how is that possible? Singapore's packed with a thousand and one buildings.
Oh the best part is, if you're caught smoking anywhere near the building; even at the lift lobby of your flats or erm... just outside the hotel or a few steps away from a coffeeshop; be prepared to be fined up to $250.
Not to mention $500 if you're smoking counterfeit cigarettes.

SO MY ADVICE, DON'T SMOKE.

I'm a heavy passive smoker.
Everyone around me smokes at least 2 packets a day.
The only time I get fresh air is when I'm at home.
Alhamdulillah, my dad doesn't smoke.

So please, don't ruin your lungs and that of the people around you.
Just quit smoking.
Singaporeans; you have the "Quit Smoking" quitline-: give it a shot! :) No Harm dudes.

My granddad passed away of Lung Cancer.
I saw an x-ray of his Lungs before he passed on.
he had tuberculosis before he was diagnosed with Lung Cancer.
Trust me, you don't wanna end up like him.
His lungs were :S
forget it.
google it if you really wanna see it.
"Quitting is hard. Not quitting, is harder."- Singapore's Health Promotion Board.

TODAY WAS HORRIBLE. I don't wish to rant about it.
I'm going to sleep and pretend that today was good.

I LOVE ALLAH, Do you?

P.S I love you, I love you not. Hmm...

-A'qilah Saiere.-

I need a break.

I need a serious break to sort out my messy thoughts.

I need to sit down and have a good chat with my dad.

I need to go for lunch with my best friend; sit down and stop arguing with her over the most petty of matters.

I need to decide on what I want and what I don't.

I need to tell some people what's needed to be told.

Most importantly, I need to bring myself closer to my Creator.

And I will Insy'Allah.

Seriously I need a break.

I'm tired of being judged. SERIOUSLY.

Ok Bye.

A'qilah Saiere.

Sick And Tired Of Your Excuses.

To date, Israel has been continuously firing Gazans with illegal chemical weapons and their American-manufactured bombs, guns, tanks and planes for 22 days.

What we hear from the leaders of the Arab nations are mere words. Yes, they do send aid; but do the aid reach the Gazans?
IT may seem that we are no where close to seeing a ceasefire. Afterall, it was Israel who vetoed the ceasefire order by the United Nations.

Though so, one thing's for sure; The Zionist State has lost.
Lost the respect any form of mankind had for them; except that of their own kind.
Lost pity that the world always had towards the Jews; for having gone through the holocaust (WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE PALESTINIANS)
Lost.

Again and again we hear the same thing from the same leaders; the same "lame" excuses from the same mouth.
" Israel regrets civilian casualties and we're merely targetting hamas militants who hide amongst them (Civilians)"
If this is true, the death toll wouldn't have rose to 1200++ and 60 % out of which are women and children.
Even when this happens, they are still screaming "Anti-Semitism, Chosen People, Holy Land!"
PUH-lease.
We've had quite enough.

We've heard your reasons to your "Strategic mistakes"
We've heard your "regrets" and yr "condolences"

The world HATES you now.
We clearly are aware of what your actions towards the Gazans are.
You kill them, their loved ones, rob them of their land, take away their slain rights, keep them starving and deprive them of healthcare.
You bomb the UNRWA bodies, fire continuous air raids, separate mothers from their children, husbands from their wives.
Now, you don't even allow them to pick up the bodies of their dead (to read more go to Chasing Jannah)

What will be the next excuse you're coming up with?
Nothing but the same old reasons.

We're tired of your crap dear Zionists.
Just know that victory will be ours to be celebrated; it's just a matter of time.
It'll be ours, that has been promised by Our Lord Himself and it shall be ours.

-A'qilah Saiere-



This is utter bullsh*t. If you don't mind listening to a whole 5 minute of nonsense; do watch this piece of CRAP.

@*!&(*#^@&#^@(#!)*@_!_@)!_@)!_ ISRAEL :)

We Will Not Go Down -: Michael Heart

A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they're dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who's wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight

We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Thank you Imaan

So here I am typing what I have in my mind; just a lil bit different today. I'm not alone. LOLS. I'm at cousin's and I'm on her MAC lappy (I just think such notebooks should not exist)

I don't like to blog when I have someone around me but oh well... I'm not at home so I can't help it.

ANYWAY that wasn't what I wanted to talk about.

You see, my best friend isn't a Muslim so sometimes it's hard t communicate with her. Sometimes she thinks I'm an Islamist. I can't help it though; I am. She must be the one amongst the few kuffars that I don't have a problem with. 

That's besides the point.

So recently, she's had some serious issues at home; concerning her parents and her GCSE results.

Somehow or rather it really showed me how lucky I was to have parents so supportive.

Should I say parents who have instilled Imaan in themselves and in me.

They could have chosen the courses for me; scolded and shouted and not talk to me for having not achieved the results they expected me to yet they chose to let me decide on my future; Let me decide on who i want to be in the future.

Truthfully, my parents have never really been so supportive but Alhamdulillah they are now :)

So why did i name my post thank you imaan?

To have imaan is as good as to have everything.

Out of disappointment upon getting my undesirable results I could have chosen to take my own life yet My Imaan stopped me,

Out of anger upon seeing my undesirable results my father could have chosen to use the most harsh of words and throw it to my face; or simply give me a slap but Imaan stopped him.

and my mum could have stopped talking to me like how she used to when I made her angry until I asked for forgiveness 1001 times yet this time Imaan stopped her.

I attended class today and what the Ustazah said totally made sense.

When someone insults us; I'm pretty sure it's human nature for us to insult back rather if we let our Imaan take control of our hearts would we? I don't think so.  We'd probably just walk away in silence.

When our mum starts nagging we'd probably start raising our voices trying to make her understand that "we get it" yet should we have Imaan in our hearts we sure know it's wrong to do so.

Think about it, you and I are both Muslims. We sure know that Islam is our way of life; well it sure is for me.

So should we let our temper rule our head or should we let our Imaan take control of our hearts?

So as I sit here, watching my cousin parading like a model on a runway show with half of her wardrobe rummaged; trying to seek my opinion in what she should wear tomorrow for our town outing; think about what I just wrote about.

A'qilah Saiere (: 

PLEASE, ENOUGH. HENTIKAN, STOP, BAS!

"Do all Mothers go through this, or is it just because I'm Palestinian?" - Saffah Assed ( Palestinian Mother from gaza).

This lady here together with her husband waited for a child for 6 years before they were finally blessed with a son. As soon as they have been blessed with one after a long wait, they had to send their child to the hospital due to the baby's difficulty in breathing; again due to the air strikes. Till today; 19th day of the baby's birth, the mother of that young Palestinian baby hasn't seen her baby from birth because it's too dangerous for her to get to the hospital.

Just imagine Oh Israeli women if you're reading this, JUST IMAGINE if you're Sister Saffah.
Will you be able to withstand this?
Imagine Oh Mrs Bush, if that little boy was your son.
Imagine Oh Mr Obama if that mother was your wife.
Imagine Oh Women of the world if that happened to you and your husband.

Or should I say, Imagine oh my brothers and sisters that you're in the place of the baby.
Instead of crying in the arms of your mother, instead of living in the comforts of your own home, instead of wearing the coziest of baby clothes that your mum has bought for you;
you're crying in an incubator with only nurses to calm you down, you're living in a hospital with air raids all around and you're wearing a mere diaper to cover your little body.

To date, 1038 palestinians have been killed over 4000 wounded 60% out of both are women and children.
13 Israelis have been killed over 8 years.
For more info -: Al-Jazeera.

Who's the real terrorist here?
Who are the real murderers?

Someone sent me a message on youtube out of which I really think I should share with all.

Three Worst Men

I found this to be very intersting...and very Harsh but i guess the meaning behind it is true....Lesson to be learned.



There were three men competing to see who was the worst one in the world.

The first one attacked a woman, beat her until her teeth fell out and she bled from her nose and ears.
He beat her so savagely that she fainted.
He turned to the others and said, "I am the worst one of all."

The second man stepped up to rape her and beat her further until she was almost dead.
He turned to the others and said, "No one can be worse than me."


The third one stepped up, smiled coldly, and said, "No, I am the worst one even though I just stood by and watched, because this woman is my sister."


PS:
The woman is Iraq.
The first man is Saddam.
The second is the West.
& The third is the Muslim world that stood by and did nothing.

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Now think of the woman being palestine!
The First man as Israel,
The Second man as the United States
& Again the third as the Muslim World.


I don't want to be part the of the 3rd world who stands by and does nothing.
What about you?

الموت لاسراءيل

الموت لاسراءيل

الموت لاسراءيل

الموت لاسراءيل

!!!!!

mms://skinkers-livestation-client-d0ac-aljazeer-en.wm.llnwd.net/skinkers_livestation_client_d0ac_aljazeer_en
(Copy and Paste this under "Open Url" in Media Player to watch Al-Jazeera-English in High Quality.)

Press tv ( Iran's CNN/BBC/an good alternative to Al-jazeera)

JazakAllah Brother Omar for the URLs.

-A'qilah Saiere.-

Disappointed Yet Not.

So I got my results yesterday. I must say I was disappointed with my results; most likely because it wasn't what I expected it to be. (Must have expected too much) But then again, what I've attained clearly shows what I'm capable of and how hard I studied.

Thus, the only reason that I probably should be disappointed about right now is the fact that I didn't get into the institution that my father always wanted me to.
Though so, my parents have never failed to show continuous support. So have my aunts and cousins (not all, but Alhamdulillah some still do care).

This would probably would seem like an ending to some but I believe that after every ending is a new beginning.
Whatever course that I may get into this time round, I shall make it one that I will achieve in and major eventually.
Some out of which I've chosen mainly comprise of Humanities and Languages courses; what I've always wanted to do. Only 3 out of my 12 choices are of Banking and Finance- Which I don't mind majoring in either.

I get people who aren't supporting me, discouraging me at the same time. For a moment I was fazed by the comments made and I became really paranoid but one thing's for sure, my heart and mind is set.

My heart and my mind is set to do well this time round. I have let my parents down and myself down most importantly this time; and Insy'Allah I'm firm in not repeating my mistake again.

I've chosen the courses in which I have utmost passion in; do pray that I get accepted into the course that I desire as well as that that my sisters desire. And I always believe that when I have passion in something, I will be keen enough to work hard and achieve the best that I can in it.

I try to make myself seem NOT upset but it seems that mothers being mothers; she was able to figure me out. She kept coming to me and patting my lil head saying
"It's ok, cheer up. What's done is done. I will talk to your dad; I'm sure he will support you. We all will. Whatever it is, your parents are always with you"

Just recalling what she said is able to make me tear. All this time I've always taught that my parents would always try to gain total control over my life. It seems that no, they've always made sure that I receive the best of both worlds (Dunyawi and Ukhrawi)

As I always say, after every tunnel is a lighted pathway. Insy'Allah; this new pathway will be lighted with His guidance and light.

Oh Allah, grant me success in this life and the hereafter;
Guide me through this new pathway;
Continue Oh Lord to shine your Noor in My heart and mind.
Protect my loved ones Oh Lord, and Keep them close b me always.
Forgive us of our sins and grant us a chance in your Al-Jannah; spare us from the punishments in hell for You are the Utmost generous and the Utmost Merciful.

Ameen.

Keep me in your prayers insy'Allah.

-A'qilah Saiere-

Menteri Kayu,; Government Puppets.

For once I decided to switch from Al-Jazeerah and Press TV to The Channel 5 news on Mediacorp TV, Singapore.
Bad timing really.
A leader of the Muslim Community in Singapore was interviewed on how he felt that Singaporeans should contribute in helping and aiding the Gazans.
His speech totally infuriated me. He mentioned how it was pointless boycotting American Products and how pointless it was for Muslims to stop going to McDonald's and Starbucks.

BLOODY HELL.

It really is okay if you're trying to be pro-government here, not that i expect much from the Muslim leaders here anyway. But what was the need for you to mention that?
Already, it's enough that the youth here can't be more ignorant to what's happening to their brothers and sister in Palestine probably because of the lack of information they receive. However, isn't it a lil too obvious now? A Lil too obvious that the Palestinians need our support in every little way?

It's Okay if he wants to be Pro-US and do things only through prayers and what not; but really what was the need for him to say that "Boycotting Mc and Starbucks is INSENSIBLE".

Does he know that we know that boycotting the products supporting Israel will not make much of difference?
But rather if only he understood the brotherhood in Islam will he understand why we do the latter.

We do this not because by boycotting these products Israel will get out of Gaza rather it turns back to our conscience. How HUMAN are we to allow our money, our parent's money, our friend's money to be amongst/in the funds that are supplying the troops that kill and traumatize the every living day of our brothers and sisters?

And guess what it takes the attack to move on to a 3rd week for Singapore to finally set up a fund-raising to aid the Gazans.

Sigh...

-A'qilah Saiere-

Deen Ul-Haqq.

What happened to the ummah once known so well?

Oh Muslim Women, Where are the veils over your heads?
Oh Muslim Men, Why are there prints on you bodies?

Can you hear the cries of your oppressed brothers and sisters?
Or are you in your pubs drinking whiskies?

Oh Muslim Men, Why aren't you asking your daughters and wives to cover their bodies?
Oh Muslim Women, Can't you see they're treating you like mere shelved barbies?

Where is the ummah?
Where are my brothers and sisters?
Are they too busy with Dunya to see what's in store for them in Akhirah?

Oh Muslims what happened?
Day by day, the women take each piece of cloth away; the men lead their life astray.
Decreasing in Iman, decreasing in faith, taking on board the disbelievers characteristics.

BUT WHY?
Why Oh Muslim women do you choose to walk around half-naked when you've been given Modesty in the prescription?
Why Oh Muslim men do you drown yourself in Alcohol when it's been said to be harmful?
Why Oh Muslims do you choose to intoxicate yourselves with the western culture when you were born to be as pure as pearls.

Oh Muslims, you have the deen-ul-haqq (religion of truth) what more do you need?
You're here because of Him, shouldn't it be for Him?
Islam is the way of life so why then aren't you following what's meant to lead you?

"Allah has chosen Islam for you. With that purify your hearts with generosity and Kindness for Islam is incomplete without both"
~Prophet Muhammad Saw.

Best form of exercise-: Solat (Prayer)
Best form of Diet-: Sawm (Fasting)
Best Face Moisturiser-: Wudhu' (Ablution)
Best Book On Science & The Way Of Life-: Al-Qur'an and the Al-Hadeeth.

& The best being to turn to in times of woes and sorrows; Allah swt.

What else do you need Oh Muslims?
When your time is here, will you be ready for it?

Fear Allah swt for When He says "Kun Fayakun" There is no turning back.

REPENT, LOVE ALLAH, BE MUSLIM; not by name but by your hearts and minds.

-A'qilah Saiere-

:)

you see sometimes I feel like updating everything in one day. It's 3.10am here and I'm not in bed. WTH :S Sometimes I just have so much in mind to say but the very next moment I can't think of anything to blog about. Call today my "inspired" day it is.



this is some really good video. you don't know what you're missing out in if you don't watch it.

"Islam began as something strange and it shall return as something strange, the way it began." Prophet Muhammad SAW

Ghuraba-:The Strangers.

P.S I MISS MY FRIENDS I MISS SCHOOL AS MUCH AS I HATE IT. I MISS YOU NADIA, FARINA, WAHIDAH, RASHI AND EVEN FATIN AND SANDRA (THOUGH I JUST MET YOU GUYS 12 HRS AGO)

ON MONDAY MUST GIVE ME A HUGE BEAR HUG OK? :P


ARRRGH OK IM GNG TO BED.
-A'QILAH SAIERE-

(SORRY FOR THE CAPS)

Solat Hajat.

To Muslims in Singapore please take note that there will be special mass prayers at 2 mosques in dedication to our beloved brothers and sisters in gaza.
Should you be free on Saturday; January 10 and Sunday; January 11 please be present for the prayers at Masjid Kassim and Masjid Sultan respectively.

The Prayers will commence right after Solat Zuhr.
For those who aren't familiar with the masjids, you can travel by MRT.
For Masjid Kassin drop at Kembangan MRT Station.
For Masjid Sultan drop at Bugis MRT Station.

Both stations are just a stone's thrown away from the Masjids.

Do make the effort to come down. Singapore doesn't usually do this, which clearly shows how bad the situation is over there.
JazakAllah Hu Khair.

-A'qilah Saiere-

A Special Sister ; A Blessing ; A Gift.

I mentioned in a random post that I have a special sister ain't it; but I never elaborated why she's special, who she is and so on and so forth. So before I go on about that let me tell you a lil something about my day.

Woke up pretty early in the morning to get ready to leave for school. No, I'm not going back for any form of lessons just went back to accompany my best friend (Sandra) pay off her outstanding school fees.lool. So the interesting part was that we took a cab and sandra decided to make the cab ride a roleplay.

Sandra-: "Hmm... I wonder what class we'll be given today?"
A'qilah-: "Huh?!"
Sandra-: " Ill think we'll be getting a sec three class."
A'qilah-:" (lols in my mind & played along) "Oh, yes so which teacher are you taking over today?"
Sandra-" Mdm Lam"

WTH! When in the history of Hai Sing Catholic School in the past 4 years was there a Mdm LAM?! LOL!!! And the cab driver really thought we were relief teachers and wanted to give us a receipt for the cab for so we can claim under civil servants' rights. LOLOL!!!

Anyway, yeah good day out with bestie and then went window shopping with mum and again all she talked about was marriage. WTH. Grrr.... She was listing out the qualities she wanted in her son-in-law. LOLS. hahahahahah. my mum cracks me up sometimes.

So yeah my special sister. Who is she again? Fatin Bamadhaj.
She'll probably be reading this so I'm going to write how I truly feel about her and why I term her as Special like no other.

Believe it or not for the past four years she was in the same school as me but we never got the chance or should I say we never talked before. Throughout the four years it was mere "Hi; Byes" except one particular day where we got to sit down and discuss about the 911 attacks when we were supposed to be studying lols.

So yeah and every other chat we had were just school related or friends related; nothing more.
Should I say Allah swt brought us together. She approached me one fine day; and decided that i was the perfect person for her to pour out her sorrows.
I was being my counsellor self. :) So I tried my best to make her feel better and Alhamdulillah, as she claimed I did. We met up for a religious class that same week on friday and I realised that I need to get closer to more Muslim Sisters here in Singapore so I fixed up another meeting with her to tell her that since we do get along well, let's get to know each other.

Met her for lunch some few days later and tada! that must have been the best lunch and most memorable one in my 16 years of life I must say. I've been;well I was then complaining tomy UK sisters how the sisters here do not have the same mentality that I do. And with the way I think, what I say, my passion, I get smirks, dirty looks, and some even take me to be a extremist.
And after so long of being a loner, I finally found someone that shared my every interest. Who would have thought that the last person I'd ever talk to about myself or anything to do with me; ends up to be the person today that I dare to speak my mind too.

Even if you asked her today what brought us togther she'll say "Allah swt"
With that I totally agree.

To date we've made a million and one plans. Insy'Allah Allah swt will answer our dreams and strengthen this relationship that we share.

Dearest Fatin, you always say I've made you a better Muslim and so on and so forth you probably hadn't noticed how much change you've brought about in me.
I must say that never a day pass without me thanking the glorious Lord for having blessed me with a Sister like you.
A Sister in Islam; A Blessing; A Gift; A Friend in this life and the Hereafter insy'Allahu ta'ala.

Insy'Allah we'll do well in our damned O Levels and soar together :)

Love you loads :D

P.S Raihanah here's the link :) Like how I'm an inspiration to you, you're one to me too :) Bless you! <3
http://www.boycottisraelnow.com/list.htm

-A'qilah Saiere-

Results are a big headache.

Yesterday was a good day. For once I didn't cry at all in a day; probably because I switched the news off when it was about Gaza. Not that I don't bother about the situation there anymore it's just that I can't bring myself to look at dead bodies every other day.
I'm missing my sisters from the United Kingdom. Haven't got the time to sit down and talk to them; school's re-opened on their side.

Btw, those who haven't caught "Australia" please do catch it. There were only 8 people when I went yesterday but yeah I must say the movie is really good. Nicole Kidman played a great role. The war scenes in that movie gives you an atmosphere out of which you feel like you're in Gaza.
PERFECT for self-reflection.

I went to the Indonesian Embassy yesterday to settle some issues with my domestic worker. My Lord, they work at the speed of snails. :@ We were there as early as could be; 9 am and we left the embassy at 12 noon. How great is that. Talking about which we have to return to that place again tomorrow to collect my maid's passport. Oh Lord...

Anyway,I will be receiving on Monday (this coming monday) :S

wAllahi, this whole "Im getting my results on monday" has been giving me countless nightmares even in my 10 minute naps.
My brother's out to let me die in a state of fear. He's been counting the number of hours, minutes and seconds to the release of my results.
Prick.

This is really freaking me out. Please do keep me in our prayers insy'Allah; though there are more important things to pray for I need this favour.

Reminder to all GCE O Level Examination takers, please be present to collect your reports on the 12th January 2009 @ 2pm; Monday at your respective Schools.
All the best and Allah bless us all. Ameen.

P.S I'll probably not be online. Got loads of thinking to do. Will be blogging though insyAllah.
attached is my school choir, just wanted to show my school uniform that I have to wear on Monday. WTH.

-A'qilah Saiere-

Time Is Crucial.

Take a look at this:
http://al-habib.tripod.com/islamic-clock/palestine01.htm

A Picture speaks a thousand words.

Or more.
McDonald's and Starbucks as well as Adam Sandler's Bedtime stories will be donating the profits of their business from Monday to Saturday to the Israeli Defence Force to fund the troops on Gaza.

So if you're a sub-human at least, please stop eating at Israeli-based outlets and stop funding the massacre that's leading to a humanitarian crisis in Gaza.

Thank You, God Bless.

Insufficient Rest.

Went for the court trial today. My cousin will only be prosecuted on the 20th. Typical Court games.

I have an appointment at 7.30 tomorrow with the Indonesian Embassy; Some maid issue.
And another at 1pm; Someone's treating me to lunch again. Lols.

I'm tired and I've not been getting sufficient sleep.
I'm in call with my best friend right now and it seems that she's fallen asleep. lol.

Ok, i'll blog again properly another time insy'Allah.

Someone please save Gaza )':

Good Night.
Love,
-A'qilah-

Enough is Enough I say...

I don't have anymore energy to rant on anything right now.

I only had 3 hrs of sleep and I still can't stop thinking about the ongoing massacre in Gaza.

Shattered.
Ruined.

But mourning will never help. Prayers do though.

Prayer is power.
Prayer is power.
Prayer is power.
PRAYER IS OUR POWER.

Oh Allah, the highest being, the greatest, the most magnificent, the creator of the fiercest predatory animals.
Shower your blessings on your believers, your followers, your servants.
Strengthen them from deep in.
Protect them from their enemy, from our enemy ya Allah.
We depend on Your guidance today, tomorrow and forever.
Oh God of the universe! You are Our aid
You are the refuge of man in the afterworld
Grant us victory soon Ya Allah.
Punish those who are out to destroy your religion of pure monotheism, who are out to destroy the believers of your religion.
Grant shaheed to those who have left us and has returned to you in your path my Lord.
Ameen

Gazans, who are here and who aren't shall never be forgotten and will never be forgotten.

Keep our beloved Gazans in your prayers ( it's our only weapon now).

If you're Human, you will.

-A'qilah Saiere.-

Israel, enough... enough is enough I say... : '(

100 things.

Got this from Hijabee's blog :) Nice tag sis :D

Rules :: Basically highlight stuff that you've done. :)

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii ( WOULD LOVE TO INSY'ALLAH :D)
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain (lol, i aint that sporty)
9. Held a praying mantis (EWW)
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumping ( one day insy'Allah!)
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning ( more than ten times. LOL)
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty ( to step on it? sure, one day)
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill ( LOL, i ain't no saint huh)
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb( During Eid-Ul-Adha)
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon ( can't even pass my 2.4KM run in school LOLS)
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset(aaah, gorgeous)
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language ( YEAPS :D Chinese! Turkish! :D)
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing ( as in the wall-rock climbing, LOLS)
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkelling
52. Kissed in the rain ( LOL, nonsense.)
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class ( I'd ratjher take Silat (Malay Martial Arts))
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma ( One day insy'Allah =])
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp ( LOLS!)
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favourite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Qur’an
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life (lol i'm not a hero)
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one ( Grandaddy : '( )
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day

Hijab and School.

I'm feeling really, horribly scared. If there is any one word that describes fear right now, it describes me.
I'm getting my results for my O Levels (GCSEs) soon, for sure really soon. The state of mind that I'm in now is out to kill me.
This examination results will determine where I stand for the next 2-3 years and whether I will be close to reaching my ambition or will I be left to re-run the race at the starting point.

gosh, I feel retarded now because the main reason I'm stressed is not because my results will be out soon but rather where I'm ending up at.
Ok basically, I want to get to the best institution available; Junior Colleges(JCs). Get my 2 year course, be done with A-Levels and move on to University.

Alright, the problem is if I DO get into a JC; I won't be wearing my hijab when I leave my home for school and I will be in a skirt as short as it can get above the knee or slightly longer, touching the knee with a short-sleeved blouse that comes with it.

I used to not have a problem with this because I grew up with it. TO school means with NO HIJAB.
But Now, I'm a Hijabi. And I've grown too attached to my hijab that I wouldn't leave my house without my headscarf.

How am I now supposed to leave my house and be without hijab for 12-13 hours outside with random strangers all around me?

It's not that I'm definitely getting into a Junior College but the question here is would I go for it if I have the ability to?

These are the rules here, throughout Primary School and High School; No Hijab for me in sch.
UNLESS instead of attending a JC, I attend a Polytechnic do I get to wear the Hijab to lectures. WHAT DOUBLE STANDARDS.
I don't get the idea of why JC students aren't allowed to be dressed with Home Clothes and have to be in attire whereas those in Poly are allowed to dress in whatever way they like.

WTH asking me to leave the house without Hijab is like stripping me of my dignity, my modesty.
It's not just a piece of cloth over me and that is something many don't understand.
At the same time, I don't see why people make such a big deal of a woman with a piece of cloth over her head.
They speak of democracy yet they rob us of our liberty.

Speaking of liberty, I don't even think I know the meaning of that word anymore.
I used to be so proud of my country with the mutual respects that we have towards each other and how we'd all be friends with one another despite our vast cultural and religious beliefs.
I used to think that every group in the community is and has always been treated with much equality.
On Second thought, I don't think so.

I'm a Hijabi.
I can't be a newscaster.
I can't be a salesperson.
I can't wear my Hijab to college.

That's three strikes to one point.

I refuse to go on.
The only reason why I love my country still is the mutual respect part. To date, I don't think I have come across anyone, anywhere who has come to me saying
"Hi, you're a Muslim where is your bomb buddy?"
"Hi, you wear the hijab you're freaking oppressed"

Alhamdulillah.
There's always one thing they emphasise in school "Racial and Religious Equality"

But I've made up my mind for sure, I'm not living here in Singapore and I wish to migrate insy'Allah one day when I have the money. [winks at Fatin ;)]
For I do not want my children to grow up like me, censored.

Here I am writing out a post, waiting for fajr; and there they are my sisters in London & Manchester, getting ready for protests to do what they can to free Gaza.

Honestly,
I feel like the most useless person on earth because all I can do is keep the Gazans in my prayers.

:S

*Call of prayer comes in*

Ok Bye, Fajr.

A'qilah Saiere~

Am I Depressing?

Comparing my blog to the one I share with Sis Naz, I think this blog's a lil too depressing. I sound like a critic in every way and depressed in almost every post.
I don't know if it's a good thing but it isn't either because I have to have a balance in being happy and being sad.

The blog I share with Naz is a lil less frustrating and shows my outgoing and happy part of ME. This blog is meant for me to write the contents of my heart that no one's ever willing to hear. I must say what I am here is ME.

I find myself a lil boring sometimes but oh well, if being A'qilah is being boring, than by all meanssss :)

How many of you are still depressed over the Gaza issue? I am. But hey, I remember what I used to tell a friend; " If you look for strength in yourself you shall be the weakest but by looking for strength in Allah, we shall be invicible"

I think this incident should make us all stronger than before with firm decisions to make.
So walk with yr heads lifted to the skies, and let us all walk as one; ONE UMMAH.

Think about it, it could be Allah's way of binding us together and to rise as one to be glorious like we were before.
Insy'Allah.

-A'qilah Saiere-

Special Brother, if you're reading this, sorry I didn't answer your call. Benadryl knocked me off and I was dead to the world for close to 14hrs :S. ttys. :)

I sit and I stare. : '(

I sit and I stare;
My heart full of pain, filled with despair;
I feel weak, I feel useless;
Watching you die under the hands of those who are heartless.

I sit and I stare;
My heart full of pain, filled with despair;
"Aiming the civilians aren't what we want" they say;
Yet they kill hundreds of you day by day.

I sit and I stare;
My heart full of pain, filled with despair;
I hear your sufferings and I hear your cries;
Yet many still think what I say are lies.

I sit and I stare;
My heart full of pain, filled with despair;
No tears are left for me to cry;
You've cried rivers of rivers yet they are left to dry.

I sit and I stare;
My heart full of pain; filled with despair;
I can't return your homes nor can I return you your loved ones;
But one thing's for sure, you'll be given victory and emerge winners that you were once.

I sit and I stare;
My heart full of pain; filled with despair;
When the world will change, I do not know;
But lies can't rule the world forever thus, one day the truth will show.

Love,
-A'qilah Saiere-