Short and sweet.
Truly in His rememberance do we find peace.
In times of woes and sorrows, He is the refuge we seek.
He did it again.
I told Allah "I hate life"
Allah answered "Who asked you to love life? Loving me would be quite enough"
:')
I <3 you My Lord and Thank you for the kindest and most loving of sisters you've blessed me with.
Nada,Syahida,Haziqah,Sofia,Mastari,Muslihah,Afiqah.
<3<3<3
A'qilah Saiere
I don't have much to say but i love this nasheed so much i could cry listening to it :') Masha'Allah.
A'qilah Saiere.
I slept at 9 yesterday; the earliest I ever slept :O that shows how beat I was. It's 7am here right now and I'm all up and fresssssssh but still well... kinda yawning lol :P
AWWW YOU KNOW WHAT?! The Adzhan woke me up today! (: <3
My laptop was left on because I fell asleep half way while doing work lol. So I have this Adzhan software thingy that alarms me each time prayer comes in; So it went on and I immediately woke up with the most beautiful feeling ever. It used to be so hard to wake up for fajr; like a personal Jihad but today, I did it without any diificulties at all. Alhamdulillah (:
So yesterday was my last day with MUIS, and Alhamdulillah never has been a more enriching journey! It was tiring but the effort paid off nevertheless. I gained the knowledge I never thought I would and learned the most important thing in a Muslim's life;
"YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT"
A'qilah Saiere
I'm back from KL. I KNOWWW it's sooo fast ain't it! The trip was alright, just that it was TOO short. Really it was. :/
The best part of it is masha'Allah I got to spend some really good family time with my parents and my brother. Both my parents were unusually high throughout the trip :/ Must have been my influence LOL!
Conversation 1
Abah: A'qilah which one is the body wash, which one is the shampoo?
Me: Erm.. Green is shampoo, the other is the body foam.
Abah: Okay
Ummi: Wait wait which is which again?
Abah: This one is body foam *shows bottle* and this green one is shampoo, for facial wash.
Ummi: FACIAL WASH?!
Abah: Yeaps *enters toilet*
Conversation 2
Me: OMG UMMI! That brother sitting behind you and Abah is cuteee *grins*
Ummi: WHO? The one who's mother I was talking to?
Me: YEAPS!
Ummi: You want to hook up with him? I'll ask tell the parents to come in and ask for your hand in marriage *SMILES WIDELY*
Me: -.-"
Now agree with me when I said my retardedness was DEFINITELY inherited. LOL...
A'qilah Saiere
Title sounds wrong. lol. I'm pretty excited for my trip to KL tomorrow henceeee, the title.
Anyway, putting that aside first, I'm in a fixed position.
There's a Diploma in Islamic Studies up on offer for me. It's tooo good an offer to turn down. I do have a couple of obligations though.
I've been waiting for this really. & I don't think Ummi and Baba will be against this. In fact, Ummi is all excited about it already. Haven't talked to Baba about this yet, waiting for him to come home. Which is like in an hour? :/ I WANNA SLEEP ALREADY! BABA COME HOME FASTER!
It really is going to be beneficial both for me in this life and the hereafter. Besides, this diploma will be in English which is the best thing about it because most Islamic Studies diplomas offered here in Singapore are in Malay (due to the majority Muslims being malay kinda thing)
I really want this, I just dont know if it's the best for me.
Solution?
Istikharah.
Insya'Allah Kheyr. Make Dua3 for me.
Will be back in a couple of days.
On a brighter note, I'm raiding KL tomorrow with tons and tons of shopping to be done! wheeeee! :D
A'qilah Saiere
I didn't turn up for my Childcare Attachment nor did I turn up for my MUIS internship today. Why?
Because I came home at 11pm yesterday and went to bed at 1 and I was so shagged and tired that I knew that if I were to get up and go to work today, I'll either end up fainting in the office or sleeping instead teaching the kids. Woke up with a horrible hell of a headache and nausea.
I actuallly had a lot to blog about yesterday but my brain was malfunctioning.
After work, I dropped by to Bugis (If you know where that is; erm central of Singapore) to meet up with two coursemates for a group project thingy. Was sitting at Coffee Bean in a discussion when suddenly an elderly pakistani-indian man approached us for alms. I didn't have small change so I just gave whatever I had. And this was what happened when I told Ummi about it ( I had to tell her because I was asking for pocket money for today and tmr since I used it up)
Me: I gave him the 5 bucks I had in my wallet because I didn't have change.
Ummi: But why did you have to give him, for heaven's sake do you know he's prolly rich and just trying to find money the easy way.
Me: He looked like grandad.
Ummi: Every Indian guy that's old and asking for money on the streets looks like your granddad because they are all skinny and Indian looking just like your granddad.
Me: No, he really looked like granddad, the loose cloth around his waist and the black stripped white shirt and his little walking stick and his scruffy look. Everything about him was like granddad.
Ummi: So?
Me: You know what, if we were to be thinking and saying that everyone that's asking for alms on the streets might be rich and just asking for money the easy way out then WHY would anyone give charity? I'd prolly think of the same thing before but seriously, Islam teaches us to always have a positive impression of everyone and if we were to start malign every beggar on the street as rich but pretending to be poor then the ones that are really in need will prolly all die of starvation. Seriously.
Ummi: I really shouldn't even have tried debating with you.
(Lol, ignore the last sentence.)
Sigh...
Oh and another interesting encounter.
I went to the Sultan Mosque which was about a 5 mins walk away from where I was to rush my maghrib and stay for Isyk... I was sitting down after salah when a sister started talking to me. I knew she was a convert by the way she talked and she was Chinese too. Masha'Allah, she truly is a beautiful muslimah. Honestly, that was the first time I talked to a convert personally. (NO actually my own uncle is a convert but erm... lol nvm)
She has been a convert for 13 years. Subhana'Allah and she said just one simple sentence that was enough to make me knock my head on the wall and go "What was I thinking before this?!"
Sister: I wished I was Muslim since birth, truly I want to worship Allah from the time I entered this world and till I leave for the hereafter.
:/
Allah be with her always Insya'Allah. Ameen.
My soul is brightened by a light in my heart,
As I praised the God of Mankind.
My soul is cheered up and tears starts falling,
Oh God! Guide My heart to reason...
A'qilah Saiere
I attended a course today with a brother and about 15-20 stallholders or restaurants Operation Managers and F&B workers on the Foundation of Halal Certification in Singapore.
First questions asked-:
What is Halal?
Muslim Dude-: Err.... No Pork, No Lard.
Non-Muslim Dude-: Something that is fit for Muslim consumption.
See the difference?
Sometimes just sometimes, we need to make Islah more than we should make da'wah.
A'qilah
Somehow, I'm always more reflective on Tuesdays.
It's weird but true really.
because on some other days, I just couldn't care less.
He really does listens, He really does answers.
He really does hear your cries, He really understand your sorrows.
He knows that you need Him like how you know He's important.
Sure maybe there are times He doesn't answer your prayers and it makes you wonder why.
So here we go again.
Verily He is the all-knowing.
And My Lord, it is in Your refuge do I seek peace & calmness.
Grant me that if I'm worthy of it.
I'm sticking to my one principle in life,
"In times of woes and sorrows, He is the refuge we seek"
because it NEVER, trust me, NEVER fails.
Jazak'Allah Hu Khayr Brother Ashraf for the kind words you said earlier; Subhana'Allah it sure is motivating to have a brother like you around.
Like how you said you are proud to have me around as your sister, trust me, I can't be more thankful to have you as a brother masha'Allah :)
Shukran Sister Mas for the words of encouragement earlier; you are the sweetest thing a life masha'Allah and sister truly I love you and wish and pray the best for you always. Allah Y7make 7bebetee <3
And Shukran Ukhti Miela for always standing by me, Allah Y7make Ukhti, B7bekk ktear ktear :)
Bubbly boos, I'm missing you guys madly already :'(
A'qilah Saiere
It was sooo not what I expected.
I thought it'd be a course like thingy where I'll be the student I am and I'll be like taught the basic stuffs and all but NO NO NO I'm treated like one of the staffs there, they train me to do the call-answering, the admin work and so on and so forth :P:P:P and they are paying me LOL! :P
It's been good so far Alhamdulillah! Still getting used to the whole; office and no one is a student environment :)
heeeeee.
Sis: "What course are you majoring in?"
Me: Earky Childhood
Sis: And what are you doing in Halal Strategic Unit?
Me: I DONT KNOW! :/
Sis: NVM! I can get parenting tips from you!
LOL....
The sisters are really friendly heehee :)
A'qilah Saiere.
Allah is truly the utmost generous masha'Allah...
Subhan'Allah just somehow I'm soo contented with all that I have right now, I could sit down and cry because wallah I'm sooo grateful :')
I'm in the MUIS course,
I finalllyyyyyyy talked to my Sis Fatema on the "Phone",
I finally got to spend some good quality time with family,
and I have soo soo many people bringing joy and laughter to my life.
Sure I have alot of other things that I ought to worry about but but but AWWW this people just bring in soo much joy in my life. The only Sorrow I have for right now is for my sins; the constant regret for the mistakes I've done :'(
I need to turn in now, Insya'Allah need to wake up early tmr.
Will update on how the first day goes :)
A'qilah Saiere.
"La Ikraha Fiddeen"
I attended a lecture twice by the same person and twice she mentioned about this verse being misused by many Muslims.
This verse in Suratul Al Baqarah (V:265) means "There is no compulsion in religion"
and there are Muslims who choose to NOT want to practice Islam, take advantage of this line in the Qur'an.
When they don't want to pray and you advise them to they'll say
"Don't force me to pray, there is no compulsion in religion"
When they don't cover their awrah and you ask them to start wearing the Hijab they'll say,
"Who are you to ask me to cover when God says there is no compulsion in religion?"
This verse has nothing to do with you and how you can choose to not do the wajib.
For everything that you do there are rules to it.
When you're working in an office, you have to keep up with the rules.
When you're schooling, you have to keep up with the rules.
Similarly, when you're a Muslim; keep up with the rules.
That verse is for the Non-Muslims, Verily, we are not to force them into the deen.
Islam was never and will never be spread by the sword.
Give yourself and identity, take Islam as an entirety.
A'qilah Saiere
http://muslimahofthecentury.blogpot.com/
This site's URL is toooo similar to mine that subhana'Allah I'm fearing that my brothers and sisters start visiting the wrong site. That's a Christian site actually which makes me wonder why the URL is somewhat close to mind :/
Don't matter though, just wanted to bring this up to all of you. Insya'Allah Khayr.
Thanks Sis Syahida for bringing this up to me! Love you bumble beeee <3
A'qilah Saiere
Kid -: Teacher I remember your name!
Me-: Really Awwww sweetheart thanks, okay what's my name?
Kid-: Teacher A'qilah
Me-: Ahuh yeaps yeaps *pats boy on the head*
Kid-: But I want to call you teacher qiqilala
Me-: Suka hati kau lah nak. (If that pleases you, go ahead)
Kid-: HeeHee
LOL...
A'qilah Saiere
As you can see my posts' title aren't making much of a sense right now; because it's either I am in no mood at all to blog like a writer or it's probably the effect of excessive chocolate and ice cream.
I mean come on it's summer!
LOL, okay no joking.
but yeah, the weather has been too perfect for anything else and each time after a main course, ice cream is just too tempting to resist.
I'm hungry for prata. Does everyone know what that is?
Okay come let's have Indian for lunch tmr. <3
I feel like speaking in malay,
EH DAH LAH, dah pukul 12 malam tak tidur2, besok dah lah skolah pukul 9. A'qilah kau eh. dah dah dah tidur go shooo shooo
LOL.
A'qilah Saiere
I had a Speech Training Basic Test today whereby I had to read a story to my lecturer; with perfect pronunciation, intonation and as dramatic as you think you should.
And Alhamdulillah, despite my slight sore throat and my teeny weeny running nose problem, I aced it. Lecturer liked it and she gave me an A-.
I really didn't expect that coming but I sure was hoping.
Thank you Allah.
I have so many things in mind right now; I could break down and cry. It's not work, it's a whole other thing. Though so, I don't see the need for me to bring myself down and turn my life topsy turvy because one thing's for sure, my bubbly boos will be there when I need them to bring that joy and laughter in my life; even if it means only a tiny bit.
There's just one thing i despise about myself.
I forgive for sure I do, but I can't and it's hard for me to forget.
May Allah swt soften my heart and guide me Insya'Allah.
Ameen.
I'd like to share this hadeeth I read today;
"The Prophet saw said, The Almighty says ' If a believer comes to Me walking, I go to Him running' "
That's why I told a newly-converted brother, He didn't come to Islam; Islam came to him. Am I not right?
I need to turn in now; Meeting the kids tomorrow. Yallah am praying that they don't give me a hard time tomorrow.
Ummi, thanks for the bag and the jeans, the shoes and most importantly the stack of books.
<3
P.S Make dua that I get accepted into the MUIS holiday programme ): Insya'Allah Ameeen!
Ma'arif sisters I MISS YOU!
A'qilah Saiere.
I received a letter from a local reader; Sister Norsiah. Sis, if you're reading this thank you soo much for making that extra effort to write me a letter and for that really pretty bookmark that came along with it; wallah, I truly appreciate it :)
I AM SOOO HIGH AND HAPPY TODAY LOL.
Thanks to my bubbly boos!
Guess whaaaaaaaat. It's June and Alhamdulillah been counting and counting and it's been finally A YEAR since I took Islam as an entirety and and and also known my sisters from UK!
Nazzzzzz, Temmii, Ruqiii, Behireeee (: Masha'Allah love you girls sooo soo much!<3
Naz,
YOU ARE SUCH A SWEETHEART! I swear you are and I am so thankful I met you. Remember how we used to talk about everything under the sun and I'd be plastered to the computer talking about the most randomest thing with youuuu. From Somalia to Singapore and then Dubai and Yemen LOL! Thank you for being the amazing sister you are 7bibty. Truly, I love you and will always do :)
Temmi,
The person that made me fall in love with Palestine! You are my favourite person in the UK and will always always be! You are one hell of a person that will never ever fail to make me LMAO even at one simple sentenceee. MANNN I SWEAR I LOVE YOU & I'D DO ANYTHING TO GO DOWN TO MANCHESTER RIGHT NOW but that's close to impossible ): Insya'Allah one day! :)
Thank you for making me laugh and roll all over my bed when im talking to you, thank you for speaking random arabic stuffs to me leaving me clueless after which lol thank you for all the things you taught me about palestine and the zions; subhana'Allah the ilm you passed to me only Allah can reward you for it. thank you thank you thank you 7bebetee and pleaseeeeee come online more often! :P
I know sometimes youtube turns into a Zion and will not let me comment on your page and vice versa but Insya'Allah our MSN remains Muslim LOL.
Ruqi,
My Kashmiri Sis! :) Jaaaaan Mein tumse bohuttt pyar kartihu! Masha'Allah I think you were amongst the first few sisters that I met on youtube aint it? and Alhamdulillah you've been an awesomeee sis to me! :)
Awww and sis I still have that birthday vid you did for me :) Thank you so so much jaan for sharing this friendship with me throughout the past year, Insya'Allah we'll be sisters in this life and the hereafter :)
Behireeee,
SIS! I can't wait to meet you this Augustttt Masha'Allah :P
I still have yr Eid Card in my rooooom :) AND SIS! Helll yeahhh i miss our webcamming sessions LMAOOO :P
I'll tell you the rest when you're here HEHEHE :) Seni Seviyorum Canim! :)
Allah thank you for giving me sisters like them. Ameen :) <3
A'qilah Saiere
Here I am sitting in front of my darling vaio at the edge of my bed, with a growling stomach and a stack of notes in front of me all filed up, ready to be submitted and Allah knows if it'll even be accepted. Insya'Allah Khayr.
First "test" today. I seriously think my lecturer isn't very well versed in the english language because her instructions in the paper were not clear and super vague. oh well, what's done is done and i've done what i can.
We're all not very relaxed right now. Done with one major project and another one's up our sleeves for submission. It just keeps piling, one after another and to top it up we have our personal lil problems, but that's life isn't it. So instead of sitting down to complain on how difficult it is and how we are all suffering, the sisters and I, don't do much; we just sit together to listen to each other, to advise and offer hugs and most importantly to assure that we have each other's backs.
And girls, if you're reading this, that's why I love you girls soo soo much :)
Thank you for making me laugh soo hard today, i cried. LOL.
I'll be going for a course with the Muslim Organisation (MUIS) this June, Insya'Allah hoping to gain ilm' as usual. That's all i'm craving for in this world really.
Ilm.
To gain and to share Insya'Allah.
Pretty excited for it hehe!
ohhhh and yes, I CANT WAIT FOR MY Kuala Lumpur SHOPPING TRIPPPPPP!! WHEEEEEEEE (:
lol.
I need to turn in now; it's half past one.
Salam.
A'qilah Saiere
This is the second time, the freaking second time I got the same reaction from brothers who are from the same place.
Dude: Yo, who are you?
Me: Erm... Who are YOU? You added me up dude.
Dude: Oh kk cool. erm... My names xxxxx. Yours?
Me: Call me Nur.
Dude: Safe. Where you from?
Me: Singapore
Dude: Where's that man?
Me: South East Of Asia, right below Malaysia, Right above Indonesia.
Dude: Mannnn... No wonder I failed Geog class.
Me: LOL, no surprise.
Dude: WOW, You speak good english!
Me: WHAT THE.... Thanks.
Dude: I thought you wouldn't understand me cos you aren't from England like me.
Me: Excuse me? English is my first language mind you.
Dude: OH cool. i didnt know Asians speak English. You Muslim?
Me: Yes, Alhamdulillah and how could you stereotype Asians like that?!
Dude: Oh cool safe safe. Salam sista, i gtg.
WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I speak English. I'll repeat it once again, I SPEAK ENGLISH. I WRITE IN ENGLISH TOO AND I READ ENGLISH.
Prick.
A'qilah Saiere
Everyone of us have our own set of ambitions. Like how a brother wants to be a lawyer, another wants to be a software engineer and how one sister wants to be a teacher, another wants to be a pharmacist and the list goes on.
"Rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain"
That's one famous malay proverb. Basically, wanting people to keep in mind that different people have different perceptions and hence, different approach to different things and for this case, different ambitions.
I remember how I used to be seated on my granddad's lap telling him I want to be a teacher when I grow up and I still remember how he used to pat me on the head, smiling saying "Insya'Allah Insya'Allah".
That was 10 years ago, then I was about 6 years.
4 years down the road, I didn't want to be a teacher anymore. I wanted to be a lawyer. I had a passion in speaking. lool (No surprise). And again, I told him of my ambition and He'd say "Insya'Allah not only lawyer my darling, you'll be the magistrate"
When granddad was diagnosed with cancer, I spent half of my life in the hospital. In and out of thr ward everyday, visiting him after school.
I fell in love with medicine and biology. Now, I wanted to be a doctor. (14 years)
Sadly, science just wasn't my thing.
Then, at 15 years, I fell in love with Politics. I wanted to take up political science in University.
But now at 16, I'm taking Early Childhood Education. What am I doing here when I should be doing something that's related to political science?
Because I guess, Allah knows me best.
I don't want to be a lawyer anymore, nor do I want to be a doctor. I'll be a teacher; an educator.
I want to teach in an Islamic school. Alternatively, I want to set up an Islamic Childcare Center. To groom, nurture and mould the future khalifahs of the ummah.
Because I want to be here in this world to be doing something that not only benefits me, but also my ummah.
Insya'Allah Ameen.
I was talking about this to a brother earlier today. Taking into consideration that he'll be graduating with a degree in Computer Engineering Insya'Allah, he was thinking of starting up a project that will also benefit the ummah, setting up islamic softwares and islamic applications.
Insya'Allah Ameen.
May Allah subhana'Allah ta'ala guide us all in this path as we strive to achieve the best in this life only for the hereafter.
A'qilah Saiere
Have you ever been in a situation where you can neither turn left nor right because you wish to be at both places at the same time? Basically, have you ever been at crossroads?
That's how I'm feeling right now. I want to be here yet I have to be there.
Allah guide my heart to reason and show me the right path. Ameen.
A'qilah Saiere
I'm down with a horrible flu, sore throat, cough and a mild fever. Went to the doc's, he said it must have been the weather and that my body is dehydrated. I personally think, I got the bug from Ummi. She was unwell for the past 2 days and was on Medical Leave too. Alhamdulillah though, she's better now and I'm ill.
I have a pressentation tomorrow at 1 pm and I wonder, I'm just really wondering how am I going to speak aloud with a voice like this. *Oh you soooo don't wanna hear me*
Insya'Allah Kahyr though.
And I really have to thank Sis Ziqah for sending me home earlier. Shukrannn Jazillan Ukhtiiii! Masha'Allah... I don't know how to express my gratitude to you.
I nearly passed out at the bus stop earlier while waiting for the bus when I decided it's best that I rest at the Mussolah first before going off. I texted our sister here and she came running down and ranting to me about how I should be taking care of myself and when she wanted to send me home and I said "No" SHE ACTUALLY SCOLDED ME. lol.
But really truly, wallah I'm touched :) Love you sis. thank you so much.
& thank you too Ukhti Tsusu for taking care of me at the Mussolah; I love youuu to bits and piecesss <3 :)
Wish me luck for the presentation tmr! I'm turning in :)
It's sad how people would choose to forget about all the good things that you've done for them just because of a slight mistake in the relationship...
A'qilah Saiere.
