Wealthy? Who said so?

I used to be a lil too lackadasical when it comes to volunteerism; i couldn't give a heck. Maybe it was because I never got the chance to. Like every attempt i used to make to want to volunteer at a disabled home or orphanage it just ends up foiled.
But it's altogether different now. I'm part of a society that allows me to reach out to my people.

Just last Saturday, myself and a sis volunteered to help a Masjid in our area with a Ramadhan Programme. Initially we were told it's a "Youth In-Charge" day and we were to assist with the porridge distribution that'll get going after Asar. (Mosques here give out free porridge to public every Ramadhan)
However it turned out to be a lil different but a good experience altogether.
What happened was, we went to households who were in the register under the category of ""Asnaf" or whoever was eligible for monthly Zakah from the Islamic Religious Council of Singapore - and distributed food sufficient for the family to break fast with.

SubhanaAllah, the story that each unit held was just - indescribable.
Old folks are living on their own in rented flats. & we're not talking about very healthy elderly people here; these old ladies living on their own are sickly and proper weak.
And we have the hugeeeeee families; like there can be 8 kids in one small 3 room flat with their mother as the sole bread winner subhanAllah... :'(

One particular old lady just made me stop and thank Allah that very instant I saw her.
She reminded me of granny and how blessed granny is to have all of her children and grandchildren to care and love her. This lady over here is well OLD and weak and i'm for sure sickly. She lives with her husband in this old 3 room flat. She relies on a moving walking stick thingy to help her around the house and unfortunately, her husband is recently admitted into the hospital - intensive care unit; some sort of cardiac arrest / heart problem; i couldn't recall. but subhana'Allah :'( :'( :'(

I always get like really dumb remarks from Malaysians and Indonesians (I AM NOT AGAINST THEM BEFORE YOU START CALLING ME A NATIONALIST) saying that ALL Singaporeans are rich.
RICH?
RICH?
RICH?
RICH IN WHAT YOU TELL ME?

For sure we have some proper wealthy people here but who said that we dont have the poor ones here?
But I have to say, our government really takes care of the less fortunate here in Singapore and for that I'm thankful I'm in this country. Alhamdulillah.

May Allah swt ease the sufferings of these people and grant them strength and courage to lead their lives. Ameen Ya Rabb.

A'qilah Saiere.

Cranky @ 3.

COME ONNNNNN You have GOT TO BE KIDDING ME. I am sure i'm insomniac. It's been 3 straight days and I'm stuck here THINKING of what to blog when I HAVE NOTHING, i swear NOTHING to rant about and I CANT SLEEP.
I'm having my time of the month and wow what great timing! I can't do nothing. No praying, no reading of the Qur'an, youtube's boring me the hell off, the links to watch grey's anatomy is not working (Oh before you decide to leave some really "WHAT?! you are watching grey's anatomy in RAMADHAN sister?!" comments; fyi, i skip the sex parts of it) and apparently i have been spending 2 hours reading other muslimah blogs. I've been flicking from Chasing Jannah to Modest Justice and then we have Hegab Rehab, let's not forget War Torn, oh nah sis Ange i didnt forget your other blog; Mama I married a Masri and yeah mawaddah i read yours too; let me see EVERYONE. (I think it's PMS, what do you think?)

Sigh. Oh and I've been eating late at night - do you take that as Suhoor? No right... because I eat from 2-3am that's too early for Suhoor I THINK...Well here in Singapore it is. :/

Let me just get myself back and well InshaAllah, I'll start blogging productively. In the meantime, i'm going to catch Freedom Writers! Who's staying up with me?! :D
It's worth it TRUST ME ^.^

A'qilah Saiere

Are you ready?

Project Niqaabi.

Stay Tuned.

8 weeks of break; what now?

My exams are over.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
they are freaking OVER.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

8 weeks of holidays. tell me what am i supposed to do with that.

A'qilah

Happy Birthday Hijab :)

Awww you're a year old now :) It's been an amazing one year with you around. You were more than just a mere piece of cloth on my head. You were a companion, a companion to stay with till it's time for me to return to Him InshaAllah.
I was once asked the question "What was the best gift you ever gave yourself?". No doubt my answer was you.
Truly I'm amongst the blessed to have been given guidance to choose you as a friend.
InshaAllah, we'll be friends for as long as I live.
It was Islam that brought us together and it shall be Islam that holds us together.

I love you Hijab, I love you so so much. Happy 1st Birthday <3

P.S Ramadhan Mubarak everyone :) May Allah accept our prayers in this blessed month. Ameen Ya Rabb.

A'qilah Saiere

Ecstatic.

Alhamdulilllah, I'm happy :D
Really, I am :D
Actually, I shouldn't be feeling this happy
BECAUSE
I have an exam tomorrow. :/
But I can't help it really.
I have many many reasons to be Happy :D :D :D

1. Fatema received my package and she's esctatic.
2. 1st Tarrawih TOMORROW!
3. I'm Muslim.
4. Allah loves me.
5. I love Allah.
6. I'll be fasting for 30 amazing days InshaAllah Ameen! (before minus-ing away the days that I'd probably be on leave lol)
7. I am FINALLY drinking Apple Juice.
8. Oh & I can finally take chocolates!
9. Baba's going to buy me Ajwa dates for Ramadhan! wooo~
10. I am going to bed now! FINALLY :D :D

LOL.

A'qilah Saiere

OHHH! So that's Ramadhan! Right....

Friend: Darling, I wanna ask you something. When is your fasting month?
Me: This coming friday after our third prayer, it'll be considered the first night of Ramadhan. Why dear?
Friend: Oh, I was just wondering. Why do you fast anyway?
Me: Because God asked me to ^.^ ; Well, actually there are many wisdoms to fasting. A popular one would be, the fact that it gives you a constant consciousness of the people who are less fortunate; it encourages charity. Another would be, it's for the good of your body. It kinda gives the digestive system a break. But my favourite is the fact that this is one month I feel way closer to God than any other month :)
Friend: Awww, I'm not Muslim but you're making wanna fast too. LOL
Me: Hey why not?! think about it, you're dieting heehee.
Friend: hmmm hehehe. One thing's for sure though, you Muslims are really different I must say, You guys are able to go without both food and water for almost 12 hrs everyday; now that's really something. Because Hindus fasts too but we can drink; Christians can drink while fasting too & our fasting hours are way shorter. I'm impressed.
Me: Thank you XXXXXX :)

Btw, speaking of Ramadhan. I know of someone who wears the Hijab, prays & reads the Qur'an only during Ramadhan but before and after - she drinks, smokes & clubs.
Sigh...

May Allah guide her inshaAllah. Ameen.

Ramadhan Mubarak in advance! Can't wait for Tarrawih this friday ^.^

A'qilah Saiere

I'm Human, I'm Sorry.

I've met many many people in my 17 years of life - or well, 16 years and 8 months lol.
I've loved and disliked many many people too.
I've argued and quarrelled with a handful, bitched about many and for sure disagreed with many.
But one thing's for sure, I'm sorry.

I'm human, I make mistakes and sometimes I do it unknowingly though many other times I do it knowingly but i'm truly, sincerely, honestly; SORRY.

A'qilah Saiere

No... I'm just a LITTLE weird.

I've been speaking with a british accent half of the time i'm speaking english and the other half in an indian accent.
I know, the irony.

Seriously, I don't know what is wrong with me but yes, I am NOT speaking the way I should.
Oh and the problem with Singaporeans today is. When you speak in CORRECT English - in other words, the proper english language with the right pronunciation; you are faking an AMERICAN Accent.

WTF?

Helloooooooooo? I'm the one that's speaking right. NOT you.

& Don't assume that the minute I open my mouth to speak I'll be speaking with a TYPICAL malay accent. errr... I'm sorry but No, I DO NOT speak with a Malay Accent.

Yes, I use Singlish because I can't help it sometimes. Why? I live here in freaking Singapore. If I don't speak like one, I AM NOT ONE.

Even when I'm typing this blog post, I'm speaking to myself (silently that is) in a pretty thick welll... Bri'ish accen' :D

I'm really thirsty, Imma run along now to the ki'chen and ge' myself some wa'er from the fridge.

Toodles.

A'qilah Saiere

Speak Marriages, Ahem.. Malay Marriages.

No, i'm not getting over excited that I'm going to be legal for marriage soon. LOL! la' la' studies and career first insya'Allah.
I just want to claim my say in this case of well.. Malay Marriages.

In most malay marriages (well, i would want to say all; but I don't wanna start getting comments of how I am stereotyping lol); we practice this culture of how the groom will give the bride's side a sum of money, alongside the dowry. Yes, ALONGSIDE THE DOWRY. it's called "wang hantaran"

What is a Hantaran (Marriage Expenses)?
A hantaran, (marriage expenses) is a customary gift, usually in cash, given by the Groom to his bride's family for the Walimah. The Hantaran rate must be agreed upon by both parties.

Btw, this "Hantaran" heree not only comes in the form of cash but also... Gifts alongside it - Handphone,Clothes,Qur'an, Jewellery, Cakes,Chocolates etc.

The thing about Hantaran these days is that the amount of money asked - especially from the side of the bride, get's pretty much, well TOO HIGH.
It's ridiculous how it can surmount up to 20-30K. Astaghfirullah.

Sad to say but I don't see eye to eye with this custom that we practise. The problem here is, it gives many (well, especially me) an image that the bride is as good as being sold off to the groom.

After all the fard (wajib) is the dowry, NOT the Hantaran.
& it gets complicated when the groom is a non-malay. Or well, someone that's not from this area.

I need to speak to baba and make sure he has the same stand as me, if NOT... I'm going to have a helll lot of trouble when it's my turn to get hooked LOL!

A'qilah Saiere

Let's hold hands and Go to Hell together.

" Sekalipun neraka itu ada dan kamu ditakdirkan untuk kesana, kamu tidak akan sendirian, sayangku. Saya akan ada bersamamu, menggandeng tanganmu, memeluk erat tubuhmu, mencium keningmu. Kita dinginkan neraka dengan cinta dan kasih sayang. "

English -:
Even if it measn you are destined to be in hell, then you won't be alone my love. I will be with you, holding yr hand, hugging you tight, kissing your forehead. We shall make the hell cold with our love and care for each other."

That was what a buddhist indonesian actor said to his Muslim Singaporean wife. (They had a civil marriage - erm.. he didn't convert)

Omg, i swear i laughed the hell off at that three lined bit of crap he said to his wife.

Sigh... how dumb can people be these days.
*I hope he doesnt read my blog, because apparently he has one too LOL!*

A'qilah Saiere

Hands Off.

Hello, I've been really angry this whole week.
NO NO! It was since the whole of last week.

Everything was taking turns to screw up.
A sister even asked me "Have you seen A'qilah around? I lost my A'qilah"

Alhamdullillah though, presentation for my final semester project is done and over with. Now it's just the exams. & then RAMADHAN :D (10 more days!!!)

Hurt Nada & someone's gonna get hurt real bad.

A'qilah Saiere

A Muslim Youth's Dua'

A Muslim youths dua
Oh Allah I long for the time I was so dear,
dear to You, and we were so near,
I could feel You in my heart, infront and behind me
but Im losing my faith Lord, I can no longer see clearly.

Im stuck in daily fitnah,
these trials and tribulations.
My brothers cry out in pain,
and im too busy heading towards damnation.
Im but a youth Allah,
I want You right beside me
Im but a youth Allah,
Only You can guide me
Guide me to the truth,
guide me and all the youth..

Turn me away from fitnah,
protect me from zina.
I fall so easily into it Oh Allah,
and I know You dislike it so.
But dont ever leave my side Oh Allah
I cry and I cry to You Allah,
dont ever leave me stranded,
As I believe in You Allah
And I know Your mercy overcomes Your Anger.


I want you beside me
Everyday, today and tomorrow.
I easily slip, and I admit I fall
But Im but a youth Allah,
struggling in this world.
I know this life is temporary
but do I truly understand
for if I understood this point Allah, I wouldnt do corruption in your land.
I ask You for Your mercy Oh Allah,
and I ask You for Your strength.
I ask you to forgive me
and set straight my affairs,
Make this dunya easy for me
And keep me away from shaytaans flares.

For I fall so easily into fitnah Oh Allah
But I am but a youth
Who asks You for Your guidance,
to guide me to the truth
Protect me from zina, protect me from haraam
protect me from Your anger, and protect me from shaytaan

I turn to You with tears,
but how I know im foolish so
I cry to You now Allah, I know Ill forget by tomorrow.
So stay alive in my heart Allah
Inside the blood in all my veins
Remind me of Your punishment oh Allah
and remind me of the grave.
Dont let me forget hell,
the punishment for those who stray
guide me to the light Allah,
and protect me from any worldly play.

Be the light inside my heart, be with me and never part ,
dont let me be pulled down by shaytaan
and when i return to You, let me be in a state of imaan
Place me under Your throne oh Allah,
grant me a Crown of Light
for Im struggling in this world Allah,
Im struggling with all my might

For I am but a youth Allah,
I want you right beside me,
For I am but a youth,
Only You can guide me..
Guide me to the truth,
Guide me and all the youth..

For Im simply struggling in Your path.. struggling and falling so..
Guide me and set me straight... so I can meet you with My Crown tomorrow..
(Ameen!)

Shukran Ukhti Fatema :)

A'qilah Saiere