Hello 2010.

Before you go on telling me that celebrating the new year from the Gregorian calendar is Haram, I am NOT in anyway celebrating it but nevertheless I never fail to reflect on every first and last day of a year.

Thank you Allah for 2009.

2009 has taught me so many lessons. Just so much, I'm thankful I went through it all.

As much as how I'd perpetually say "I give up on life", I never meant it because at the end of the day I realise the hikmah of the obstacles I've faced.

I've met way too many beautiful people. Too many to even name them all.

I found a new reason to live for every single day.

Yes, I've cried again and again but those tears only made me stronger.

I've laughed and I've smiled and those laughters and smiles will live in me forever.

I'm 17 and I'm still living, it's something I should thank Allah for everyday.

I have food, I have clothes and I have a roof over my head.

I have a family, I have friends, I have Islam and I have my Ummah.

Thank you Allah for 2009 and please make 2010 as blessed as 2009 insha'Allah.

Happy New Year folks, kullu am w antum bi5yer.

A'qilah Saiere.

To the people that made my life worth living;

The BubblyUkhtis.

Thank you.

Thank you Ukhti Fatin & Brother Sofian for making yesterday extra special.

Thank you Akhi Mazeed for always caring.

Thank you Raihanah for the sweetest email ever.

Thank you Ukhti Tsuraiya for the breakfast.

Thank you Ummi and Abah for bringing me into this world.

Thank you Allah for everything and anything.

I love you all like i love the noodles I'm eating.

A'qilah Saiere.

Euphoria;

Allah is amazing.

I have every reason to break down and cry but He showed me just how much I'm loved and how much I'm appreciated.

I love Allah.

Today was the highlight of my 17 years of life.

I love you, Allah and everyone else that you've blessed me with.

I have issues with trust and I need you to help me with that insha'Allah.

A'qilah Saiere.

جراح أمة

ماذا نقول إذا إلتقينا بالرسول صلي الله عليه وسلم؟
I'm in solidarity for the next 23 days. Watch this video and cry like a kid the way i did.
Ana Uhib Falastin (W)
A'qilah Saiere.

We're human, that's why.

Do you realise that people love to do what they are not allowed to?

People start off smoking because it's WRONG, so it makes it COOL.

People start off drinking because it's WRONG hence, it's a stress RELIEVER.

People have pre-marital sex because it's WRONG so, it makes them DIFFERENT.

Why do people date?

Because the feeling of being loved and being with that person you love is the most beautiful feeling ever.

But, it's nafs and it's wrong.

At the end of the day, it leads to fitna and zina :(

But we're human, that's why :(

A'qilah Saiere

Merry Chistmas?

Why do I get Muslims wishing me "Merry Christmas"?

Seriously?

Guys, I believe in sacrificing lamb and reading out the takbir on the morning of eid NOT that guy in the red suit or those elves that help him pack his presents nor do I believe that 25th of December is the birthday of my Prophet Isa (pbuh).

I'm fine with non-muslims wishing because most of my friends ASSUME that EVERYONE celebrate christmas. So, they are uninformed but you Muslims are being IGNORANT by wishing your fellow Muslims the latter.

Oh, speaking of Christmas; I know of several brothers and sisters who are reverts to Islam and they have difficulty explaining to their family members that they don't acknowledge this festival.

I don't have much knowledge on this but if any of you readers have experience with this particular situation, do enlighten me on it so I can tell them what to do in return.

Bring in the comments people ;)

A'qilah Saiere.

That's how you do it.

Have you ever wondered the role that you play in making someone's day better?

It's amazing how a human mind works and it's really simple to make someone happy. Trust me.

Now, I'm not trying to sound like those people you see on tv that teaches you to make lemonade out of the lemons you get in life. I'm just trying to tell you how simple it is to make yourself and the people around you happy.

I was walking down the bus stop on Monday morning and having read a few inspirational quotes the night before, I was pretty eager to start my day off well. So yes, i was making my way down to the bus stop for a lesson implementation with my group mates when I saw an old lady that had difficulty going down the stairs. I was approaching to help her when a brother, reached first and helped her down the flight of stairs.

"AWW sweet!" - that was the one thing I had in mind. You should have seen the look on the old lady's face when she finally got down the stairs. That look was stuck on my mind the whole day. That look was the definition of euphoria; pure euphoria.

This whole scene that I witnessed early in the morning was enough to let me smile for the rest of the day. No, really.

I smiled at the bus driver, the lady that stepped on my shoe, the kid that could not stop crying and that pregnant woman who I gave the seat to.

As cliche as this might sound, try doing something good every morning; trust me, your life that's probably in shambles like mine, will improve bit by bit.

And for every second that you think you should die and not live, plant a tasbih in your tongue and istighfar; for every minute that you think of giving up, stop your self and come up with an idea for the ummah and for ever hour that you find yourself idling, plan out your life and pray that it comes out the way you want it to - or the way Allah thinks is the best for you.

Start your day with smiling every morning and trust me, it'll come naturally after a few days.

Afterall, it really is charity. :)

A'qilah Saiere

Calling Singaporean Muslim Women

Have you seen this?

http://www.empoweredmuslimwomenrun.com/index.html

Take part!

Part of being muslim is being healthy :)

A pity i have class on that day :(

A'qilah Saiere.

Do you not remember?

Remember the Eid campaign? We managed to collect about £19. Not much but alhamdulillah anyway.

This is the Gaza Charity campaign.

If you do not remember, in December last year to January this year, Israel fired continuous attacks on Gaza. I don't have the statistics with me but with white phosphorus fired at our people, I'm sure you don't need statistics to tell you that many of our brothers and sisters died in the massacre.

The siege is still not down yet and there has been very little improvements to the situation in Gaza.

We need your help. We need you to help build Gaza again.

Donate here if you can; otherwise,channel that money that you have intended to donate to this website to your local mosque - even £1 will do.

May Allah love you for loving those you love & may He reward you for all of your deeds.

If we don't help our Ummah, then who will?

A'qilah Saiere

Mubarak People.

A'qilah Saiere.

How cute.

I had my mentor supervision today and my stupid kids refused to listen. In other words, I'm screwed. Bravo!

So this little fat kid approached me. He's kinda cute really, looks like a mini version of a laughing buddha you can find at some chinese temples.

Moving on, he came to me and pat me on my shoulder.

Kid: Hello.

Me: Hi JH. Wassup?

Kid: PU YAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ( Don't want in Mandarin)

WTH. LOL. It’s either he thinks “wassup” is some kind of drug or it’s just because I intimidate people; because he started crying 5 minutes later when he looked at me and cried harder when i hugged him LOOOOOL.

I think this kid's bipolar though because before he went to sleep, he hugged me and said he loved me. LOL. I'm seeing more of my kind. Nice. So this other indian kid likes to stick around with me for God knows what reason.

Kid: Teacher. I want Pani! (water)

Me: Pani nahi?

Kid: Hindi Bolo??????????/

Me: Ji ha.

Kid: Sashrikal!!!!

Me: :/

Kid: Bohut pyaaaaaaar.

Me: That's cool kid. main hain tumse pyar kartihu.

*Kid Falls asleep*

Interesting. I love my Job; SOMETIMES ONLY.

Well, when I don't have to change diapers that is. :/

A'qilah Saiere.

"Insha'Allah Khayer"

You know how you feel so horrible sometimes and you thought it'd be a great idea to actually turn to those you think really care and all they can come up with is "Insha'Allah Khayer".

For the 203929329328328123th time, Insha'Allah khayer IS NOT AN ADVICE.

It's another phrase for "I can't really be bothered to listen and I dont really have anything to say; it's not my business anyway"

I say Insha'Allah khayer alot but ONLY because i mean it and when I really don't have anything to say, I will tell the person "I'm sorry but I really don't know what to say".

The least you could do is stop to listen to that person in need.

NOT cut her off with an "Insha'Allah Khayer"

Seriously people, you can do better than that.

A'qilah Saiere.

Yeah, you guessed it right.

I'm back to Singapore which also means, I need to get back down to reality. No more shopping, no more halal subway, no more good cold weather with smoke coming out from your mouth as you speak and no more heart to hearts till 12:45 am about a certain particular figure in our lives. SIGHHHH :'(

But nevertheless, it feels good to be back.

The one good thing I loved about this holiday was the fact that I got a chance to witness the simplicity of the lives of the not-very-well-t0-do-yet-contented Malaysians. Masha'Allah :)

I need some sleep. Bye.

A'qilah Saiere.

Rainbow.

Alhamdulillah, days are starting to get a little better. The workload is still pretty overwhelming but I'm starting to take everything step by step and well... from a lil more positive point of view.

At least I'm smiling now.

Verily, after hardship comes ease. Remember? :)

I'll be out of this country tomorrow night-after ishak insha'Allah. Can't wait to indulge in the best strawberries in Asia and teas of rich fruity flavours. I'll stick to Cranberry still ;)

Will post the pictures insha'Allah when I get back.

Wanna know one of the perks of being an Early Childhood Teacher?

LUNCH IS FREE ((: HAHAHAHA.

Come on, I'm Muslim, we say Alhamdulillah when we get free things innit? We loveeeee free stuff; especially good Halal food :) Masha'Allah!

Something interesting happened yesterday;

Brother: What do you think is your role in this World?

Me: The purpose of our creation is to Worship Allah right? So I'm here to strive for the hereafter.

Brother: OHHH so you're HERE FOR THE HEREAFTER ? :)

Me: haha, sounds familiar and yes :D

LOL...

A'qilah Saiere.

I should have known.

Father: What do you want for your 17th Birthday?

Me: Your prayers and well wishes.

Father: Awww of course darling.

Me: And Lots of Abayahs and Lots of Money.

Father: I should have known. -.-"

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Mother: What are you going to buy in KL?

Me: Anything and everything I need. Speaking of which, I need an organizer.

Mother: Whatever for?

Me: To organise my life.

Mother: I'm glad you realised that.

Me: Thank you mother.

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Father: Have you been crying?

Me: Yes.

Father: Be strong, Mujahidah.

My Parents make me so happy sometimes.

A'qilah Saiere.

Why do you resist the calling of your Lord?

"Allahu Akbar"; "Allahu Akbar"

"Allahu Akbar" "Allahu Akbar"

"Allah is Most Great."X4
"Ash-hadu an la ilaha ill-Allah"; "Ash-hadu an la ilaha ill-Allah"

"I bear witness that there is none worthy of being worshipped except Allah."X2
"Ash-hadu anna Muhammad-ar-Rasoolullah"; "Ash-hadu anna Muhammad-ar-Rasoolullah"
"I bear witness that Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah."X2
"Hayya 'alas-Salah"; "Hayya 'alas-Salah"

"Come to prayer." X2

"Hayya 'alal-falah"; "Hayya 'alal-falah"
"Come to Success." X2
Allahu Akbar
" Allah Is The Greatest "
La ilaha illallah

" There is no deity but God. "

But why?

It's not the end of the week yet but i'm drained.

In every single way, I'm drained.

Emotionally, Physically & Mentally DRAINED.

But, Allah is with me in this; I know.

He will guide me through this.

I often find myself asking Allah "But why?"

I should stop.

I shouldn't question.

Allah knows best.

Truly He does.

I'm sorry Allah, I love you.

I need strength;

I'm not breaking,

I'm shattered.

Fix me Allah;

Fix me.

My heart has become constricted with pain and my paths are narrow oh Lord;

I'm taking your hope in Your pardon and forgiveness as an escape.

A'qilah Saiere.