The video I was talking about...

In the Hijab post...

A'qilah Saiere

The last train;

Having had a spinal surgery, I've been having difficulties moving around. Trust me, the spine is everything. Once it's down, everything else follow suit.

You see, I spent 17 years of my life without a single incident that disrupted my mobility. This surgery taught me the sweetness of walking.

It's true how they say you will only realise the worth of something after losing it.

How many of us say Alhamdulillah every now and then for our working limbs?

Brothers and sisters, let us not try to catch the last train only to know that you will never reach it.

A'qilah Saiere.

What then is stopping you?

A day before my surgery, a brother and I were sharing a few Islamic videos with each other. One of the many videos that he passed me was a video, I myself had seen before. It was about the dilemma that supposedly every Muslimah goes through before she chooses to wear her Hijab permanently.

As I was browsing through several blogs earlier, I got reminded of a story or a dilemma that I, myself went through before I made my "Hijab Decision".

Before I wore my Hijab, I got into many little conversations with a number of sisters - half of which were Hijabees and the other half, otherwise.

I remember getting answers like "I'll wear my Hijab when I get married" or "I'll wear the Hijab if my husband asks me to" and of course there is the "I'll wear it when I"m ready" answers.

I am totally fine with the latter because I understand how the Hijab is not just a piece of cloth that covers your head but a responsibility that you're carrying out because of your love for God and His religion.

What I don't understand is the stereotypical thoughts that some Muslimahs have about wearing the Hijab only after marriage. It makes you question their intentions of wearing the Hijab - to please their Husbands or to please their Lord? - Of course, this is not a very nice thing to do because only Allah knows of their intentions. (I'm Human, I'm sorry)

It's just... what if you pass away before you get married? What if you pass away before you decide to put your Hijab on?

What is it that you're afraid of that you choose to not wear the Hijab?

Verily, Allah said in His Qur'an - “Truly Allah is with those who fear Him (keep their duty unto Him), and those who are good-doers.” [An-Nahl, 16:128]

Then again if the Hijab is your choice then let it be a choice for the sake of Allah.

A'qilah Saiere.

A couple of good books;

Taking into consideration that all I can do these days is sit in bed and read or write, I've had a couple of books to keep me company. One out of which is "You can be the Happiest Woman" by Dr. 'Aid Al Qarni and the other is "The Last Breath" by Osman Nuri Topbas.

These books have been my bestfriends ever since. Subhana'Allah are they amazing.

The first book is a perfect book for Muslimahs. It teaches us to be the best Muslimahs we can be here in this dunya. To me, it's the simpler version of "The Ideal Muslimah". The book encompasses the few ways we can go about taking into hand our depressed and lonely moments.

The second, as the title suggests, is about death. Another amazing book, perfect for reminding us of the final hour.

Just sharing a little bit of my After-Op life LOL :)

A'qilah Saiere

So I survived;

In the name of Allah the most gracious, most merciful.

Salam Alaykom warahmatullahi wabarakkatu.

How have all of you been? InshaAllah all is well :)

One day on the operating table and five days in the hospital is quite enough to teach me lessons I'd bring through life. Let me tell all of you a little story.

Last Tuesday, I nearly died. I mean it this time. My lungs collapsed and I was unconcious for a short while and the rest of the time I was subconsciously awake but gasping for air with every ounce of energy that's left of me so I was barely aware of my surroundings. Yes, I had a little battle with death.

How many times in a day are we reminded of death? Amidst our busy life - our not-very-long-lives, around our work, family and friends. How many of us actually sit down to think of THE day.

Nevertheless, I thank Allah.

I thank Allah for the pain, the experience, the tears and the little smiles I managed to break into. I thank Allah for not taking away my life.

My friends have been telling me how I truly am a Mujahidah for surviving the battle but I say, I survived this battle because of Allah and only Him. Allah wants me to live and finish off whatever unfinished business I have left in this Dunya for the Ummah.

This experience truly has taught me more than anyone could ever have & I hope my little sharing taught you something too.

Let us all strive to be the best Muslims that we can in this life for the sake of the best for the hereafter.

Your Sister in Islam,

A'qilah Saiere.

The final say is yours;

Well I thought it'd actually be a good idea to blog one last time before I go in for surgery. Not because I do not have faith in Allah with thoughts that maybe I might just die in it (na'auzudbillah) but well, death comes anytime. Allah knows.

Moving on.

We live in a world where sometimes we could totally forget about Allah swt as we live in the comforts of our luxurious life in this materialistic world and drown ourselves in the hearts of the filthy media. The music, the movies, the gossip, the propaganda and many other things that are out to cause fitnah and infiltrate our minds with ideas of how to live our lives the way Allah doesn't want us to live.

When we're all happy and cheerful, we go on speaking about how just wonderfully amazing life is but we forget to utter a simple "Alhamdulillah" because we are too self absorbed in the music that we have blasting in our ears. We forget that the smile and laughter that we have plastered on our faces and ringing in our ears would not have been possible had it not been for Allah's will.

& When we face a few adversities in life, we start to rant and blame everyone and everything for the seemingly miserable life that we're leading and sometimes as we blame just literally everything for making us feel so horrible, we unconsciously find ourselves being angry at Allah swt only because we forget the sweetness of uttering a simple istighfar to calm ourselves down and ask for patience from Allah swt as we set out to jump over these few hurdles He'd set for us in our lives, our not-very-long-lasting lives.

As muslims, we should always have it easy. We have Islam as our way of life, the Qur'an as our guide, the Prophet as our role model and Allah subhana'allah ta'ala to protect us all but sometimes we overlook these things that we have in our lives and we make a choice to lead our lives in the way Allah swt doesn't want us to lead - the way of the unbelievers.

What really does it take for us to realise the value of Islam and the price of our Imaan?

The final say is yours, you decide.

I'll take my leave now. I did not mean suicide, no; I need some sleep.

Keep me in your prayers my dear ummah as I keep you in mine.

Salam Alaykom,

A'qilah Saiere.

Spinal Surgery.

Salam Alaykom folks, I'm going for a spinal surgery this coming Monday. If you're wondering why I haven't blogged about till today, it's probably because I was helping myself not to think of it.

What's wrong with me and why do I need surgery?

I have a spinal condition called scoliosis. I have a 70 degree bend to my spine and I have to fix it because if I don't, I will face physical and mental disabilities in the coming future (na'auzudbillah). & once the bend reaches 100 degrees, my health will deteriorate.

So I will be gone for maybe about a month or lesser I don't know.

InshaAllah Khayer.

Keep me in your prayers. Love you all for the sake of Allah swt.

A'qilah Saiere