Let's wait to be happy;

I read a post on a Sister's blog today over on tumblr and she was speaking about how we tend to stop ourselves from being happy with excuses like how things will fall into place when we get our things right - when we're happily married, when we become rich, when we end university, get into an ivy league etc. Read the rest of her blog here.

We convince ourselves over and over again that things will get better tomorrow but all we do is sit on our butts and wait for something to magically straighten things out. So many people have come to me to tell me how it's alright to feel like a mess at this age. I'm 18. In 2 years, it'd mean that I've lived on the face of the earth for 2 decades. I have met people who have represented their countries for noble organisations like UNICEF, people who are older than me by just 2 years but they run a charitable organisation for the poor, people who have accomplished way more respectable deeds that I ever have within the same amount of years that they have spent living on the face of this earth. With that, more often than always I'd ponder on this fact and make myself feel like I'm the most useless person and that I'm nothing more than an angsty 18 year old teenager that is doomed to be working in a childcare centre for the rest of my life. And all I ever tell myself is that I'll be free and happy as soon as I'm done with my diploma and degree.

Why do I keep telling myself that I'll be free and happy only when I'm done with my diploma and degree? Is my life just about chasing certificates?

I don't know about you but I'm done being upset that I'm stuck in college. I'm going to try and find some joy in learning and climbing up this ladder till the end.

I'm going to go be happy now & you should too.

A'qilah Saiere