In the name of Allah, the most gracious & most merciful
I pray that all of you are in the best of health and the strongest of deen. I apologise for having been missing in action for almost a month now. I've been kept way too busy with college, considering that it's my last year of diploma. It's been a treacherous few months but with Allah's guidance inshaAllah, I'll get through all of it unscathed.
Nonetheless, I wanted to speak about a reflective session we had a few days ago. You see, having been drowned with work all these weeks has pushed my iman and I to the lowest possible point we could ever be in. I've been so caught up with this dunya that I've been reduced to perform only the fard. Alongside that, because of the extreme tire that I experience on some days, prayers like fajr and ishak are performed with dread. May Allah forgive me.
Alhamdulillah though that as part of the Islamic Awareness Week of our MSS we had a "Muhasabah" session or a Reflective session. We were introduced by the speaker to recall of the sacrifices of Rasulullah sallahu alayhi wasalam before moving into a session where we were asked to close our eyes as a brother starts to help us recall of our wrongdoings that we have committed towards Allah, His messenger and our parents. At the end of our session we were asked to write a letter to Allah swt as part of our promise to Him & this letter is not for Him but for ourselves to be constantly reminded of our promise.
This was my letter.
Dear Allah,
I ask of You to forgive me of my wrongdoings towards You, Your messenger, my parents and those around me. I ask of You to guide me and grant me strength as I go through each and everyday. I ask of You to love me and guide me along the path of sirratul mustaqim.
Oh Lord, grant me the opportunity to serve your ummah. What good is there in me if it is not to serve your people for Your sake? I ask of you to grant me the opportunity to live up to my name as a khalifah, even in the smallest of ways. Oh Allah, unite us and free our lands that are under the occupation of the kuffar. Restore justice to these lands and send us leaders that will fight in your path to free the oppressed. Oh Allah restore the glory of the ummah so that we may emerge to let Islam shine once again in this Dunya. Strengthen us so that we may hold steadfast to your rope.
I pledge that with your will, I shall spend my life as a service to Your people as part of my submission to You.
I ask of you to soften and strengthen my heart so that ie may submit to nothing and no one but You alone my Lord.
Let it be that my last words are "La illaha ilallah, Muhammadurrasulullah"
Exalted by Thy name.
Ameen.
Love,
Your sinful servant.
What could be more refreshing than to pour your heart out to Allah swt ?
A'qilah Saiere
